More sad videos mum posted before killing husband and kids reveal how she was feeling

More TikTok videos posted by the New Hampshire mum Emily Long, who killed her family in a suspected murder-suicide, in the weeks leading up to the incident, reveal how she was truly feeling.

Police found the bodies of Emily, 34, Ryan Long, 48, Parker Long, 8, and Ryan Long, 6, with gunshot wounds at the family’s Madbury home on 18th August.

After autopsy results showed the mum’s wound was self-inflicted, the New Hampshire Department of Justice said: “It appears that in the early morning hours of Monday, 18th August, 2025, Ms. Long took a handgun from the home and caused the deaths of Ryan Long and her two children.”

She called herself the “Brain Cancer Wife” on TikTok and had been posting videos documenting how much she was struggling as her husband had been diagnosed with an aggressive brain cancer called glioblastoma.

Credit: @emilylong41/TikTok

In one video seen by the Daily Mail before her account was made private, Emily said: “I feel very, very lonely. I feel so anxious. I know that I need to see a therapist, I know that I need to ask for help, but I’m not ready to acknowledge that, I think.”

The TikTok was posted two weeks ago, and she added: “I feel so guilty that I’m not ready to get help yet, but… it is what it is, right? I know that I will one day, and I hope that I make the decision before I feel that it’s too late.”

She also said she could feel herself “withering away”. In another clip, the mum spoke again about how lonely she was feeling while her husband was battling brain cancer.

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“I’m doing all the bed times and by the time I’m saying goodnight to my third kid it hits me that this is going to be every single night at some point for the rest of my life,” she said.

Credit: @emilylong41/TikTok

“Where I’m doing all three bedtimes alone, and then I shut the door to the final kid and I’m totally by myself and I have no one to talk about my day with.”

In another video, the mum shared: “I’m mourning my husband, I’m mourning my marriage and it’s still there. It’s very confusing and it’s very overwhelming. Our kids are definitely struggling, and now I’m starting to notice some changes in our three-year-old.”

Emily Long often spoke about trying to get herself “out of the rut”. In her final TikTok video, she said she was committed to changing the “depressed” way she felt and creating some “normalcy” for her kids.

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Featured image by: Emily Long/Facebook and @emilylong41/TikTok