Living with ADHD

There are many struggles that come with living with ADHD. Of course there’s the obvious ones like having trouble focusing, and sometimes being a little hyper. But for me personally, one of the biggest struggles is the constant feeling of uncertainty. What do I mean by this exactly? Well, try to imagine what it would be like if every time you have some kind of problem, you can’t figure out if it was caused by a disorder you have, or if it was just you being lazy, or perhaps some combination of the two.

I experience this feeling very often when it comes to my ADHD. For example, let’s say that I’m struggling to get some kind of schoolwork done. Well, I’m sitting there trying desperately to just do something. And it’s just not happening. So I have to wonder, why this is happening? Am I just being lazy? Or is it my ADHD? And if it is my ADHD, is there any way that I can deal with it? Or am I just stuck?

And in addition to affecting things like my schoolwork and other kinds of work, it can also affect things like my social life. For instance, it can be pretty difficult to sit there and try to have a conversation with another person if I’m constantly kind of just getting lost in my own thoughts. It definitely makes it difficult to have conversations if I’m having trouble listening to another person.

I think that sometimes it can even affect me in ways that I don’t even totally realize of the time. Here’s an example: So sometimes I have trouble with building social relationships and making friends and things like that. And what often happens is that I’ll think about it and wonder, why does this person seem to not like me as much as they could, or not seem to want to talk to me as I’d like. What did I do wrong?

And then I think about it and I realize maybe it’s because I wasn’t really paying enough attention when I was talking to them or interacting with them or something. And because of that, they just got the impression that I wasn’t interested or didn’t care that and that just turned them off. And that can be a very difficult realization that I’m not really sure how to deal with. And don’t get wrong, in some ways, I have been able to deal with my ADHD. But a lot of the time, it’s just really hard.